I’ve found this void
Inside of you
Into which I’ve buckled in
Howled away and gnashed my teeth
Feel myself spreading thin
Been yelling for an hour or so
Trying to make sense of it all
I trick myself into the same situations
Then scrape the mess off with my bare hands
I can taste my soar throat
Can feel the burn at the top of my lungs
I find myself having the conversations
See them play out in my head
Tired questions get triggered responses
Blur what’s unfolding behind a smile
What am I here for?
This is the thanks I get?
What could I ever learn from this?